Sunday, May 30, 2010

everything will be okay ... for now

Finally! All the at home drama is over for now. I won't get into the deals today but I will say that everyone has cooled off and everything is going to be okay, even if I do end up going a little crazy from it all.
The good thing is that the recent events have opened up my eyes to what I really want to be doing with my time in order to support my family. I just need to get up off my bum-bum and get things done!!!
Tomorrow I am doing something for the first time, playing golf! My husband was invited by my father to play but he came out and admitted that he didn't like playing golf. So I offered to fill his spot if my dad couldn't find anyone else. And it seems that he was not able to find anyone else so now I am going. I'm a little nervous because I know my brother is going to torment and poke fun at me the entire time. Maybe I'll just revert back to being 6 years old and hit him in the man parts with a club. I know I am more grown up than that but if he wants to act like he's 12 then I have no choice. Hopefully he won't feel like getting his ass kicked by his little sister.

Well, I don't have much else for you this morning. Sorry, maybe tuesday I'll have a great tale about my adventures in golf. Goodbye for now!!


Thursday, May 27, 2010

As I am typing my attention whore of a cat is sitting on my lap trying to make this very simple task very challenging as he keeps bumping his head into my hands. Also, his constant weight shifting and position changing isn't helping either. Right at this moment he has decided to drape his body across my arm. Thanks for making this difficult for me kitty. I know you want loving but this isn't the best way to get it. However I do find it funny that my cat tries to force affection out of me in this manner. And he always seems to suceed. **kittie-kittie-kittie-kittie**
Okay, I am free again! Kitters jumped off my lap to go watch birds or something outside.
I wish I had something awesome to tell everyone but I don't. I'm not even sure why I decided to post something. Maybe to get something out but I am not sure what. Normally I would be getting ready for work right now but because of recent events, I am only working saturday and sunday now. With this radical schedule change it is only a matter of time before my employer decides they don't need me anymore and lets me go. Sometimes change is a real bitch.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

the lack

I'm really sorry for the lack of updates, life has decided to upchuck a whole load of crapiness upon me. At least right now I would like to feel that someone cares as I am not even sure if anyone actually reads my blog. I know I do have some followers but that doesn't guarantee that anyone actually reads or really gives a crap. If you do read this and give a crap then I thank you and admire your willingness to put up with my ramblings.

On the vehicle: my mothership (van) had a bit of an upset a little while back. The check engine light had come on and stayed on so I had to take it to a dealership (really should be call dealer-shit!) to have them run diagnostics. Am I the only one who thinks that $89 per hour is a little over-priced for plugging in a code reading device? I really hope that they did more than that but either way I feel rather taken advantage of for that kind of cost for them to not even fix anything.

So they pull the code and it says that 'ta-da, you need a new transmission!' Wha-what?! Transmission? As in the exact part that costs more than half of the vehicle itself?
Hearing that was like a kick in my imaginary nuts. I say thank you, pay then take myself and the evil monster of a van home. My husband doesn't know what to do, but he just continues to bitch about whatever and nothing gets solved. My father had helped me purchase the van so I call him to see what he thinks we can do. I end up taking the van to the dealership I bought it from, meeting my father there and talk to the people there about my options. We take it back to my parents' house, dad flushes out the transmission and gets it nice and clean then clears out the code for me. (my dad HATES taking cars to a mechanic so he has pretty much learned how to fix cars or at least the ones he owns. i just happen to be lucky that we both own a car from the same manufacturer) So far the light hasn't come back on. It has been about 2 weeks now.

I'm really hoping it doesn't come back on. I don't want to be doomed to have the 'check engine' light on always. My last car had an issue where that light was always on and only went off for emission inspections. The fact that it went off upon approaching an inspection station and went back on as soon as I pulled out of the station was really interesting. I'm sure some of you are thinking 'bullshit, she is making this up!' but I can promise you that what I am saying is true.

The other part of my personal shit storm involves the inevitability of me having to find a new job. My husband doesn't want me working any hours that involve sending our son to a relative's home overnight. He wants me to find someone that I can turn into a career and/or be paid enough to put our child in day care. I don't have any college level education and I am currently paid $8.50/hr as a sales associate. I've worked retail since I was 18.
I am really frustrated at the fact that he wants me to find this job that I am clueless as how to find or what kind of work it is. And really pissed at him because he will not let me utilize my solution to the issue which was simply have a different relative watch our son for the 2 days during the week that I work. I don't know what to do and almost ready to tell him to go fuck himself. I feel that it is really unfair of him to use this situation as an opportunity to make me quit my job. I think he is forgetting that my job pays for all my expenses (car, gas, hobbies) as well as our internet, cable, food, diapers, doctor visits and any other little thing that our son may need.
Ugh, I don't know what to do.

Monday, May 10, 2010


my car might need a new transmission. we will see...

So I am going to seek a second opinion then go from there.

I really hate that I am having to do this. I just dealt with car drama not even a year ago and I am not ready to deal with more. But I guess the mothership has no sympathy for me.

Sunday, May 9, 2010

what i wore to maryland wool and sheep festival

Maryland wool and sheep last weekend was awesome! With the exception of the horrendous wait in line, I had a great time and brought home a lovely wool duster with a detachable long handle. I can now dust in places above my head. Yay for a cleaner house!
To the left is my outfit featuring my lovely pink and mint candy striped skirt from I Do Declare. This is my second piece of lolita. I have yet to wear the jsk my husband bought me (first lolita piece). I know those of you who wear lolita often are thinking that I broke many 'rules' with this outfit but I do not care. I felt beautiful and carefree in this and frankly I don't like following rules. And I don't care if that makes me an 'ita'. What does matter to me is that what I wear makes me happy.
I will say that I got many compliments on my skirt and only one strange gawker who took a picture (that I noticed).

Yes, short post today. This week I plan on coloring my hair again or at least more planning to color. So you can expect more talk on hair color and such. LOVE!!

**omg!! I just saw that this is my 42nd post!! If you are a fan of Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy (book and old bbc show, not necessarily the movie) you will know the significance. haha, Happy 42!**