Sunday, December 18, 2011

no title

So many times I have told myself that I want to start blogging regularly. How much I think I enjoy it and how much fun it looks.
I fail at doing that even though it seems like it would be a lot of fun. Then, I get so tired and lazy from the rest of my life that the desire to blog is all but gone. I feel like I fail at doing all the things that I enjoy doing. I know I am depressed and I need help. But when do I get to go get that help? When will be it my time to go do the things I once enjoyed and fulfill my creative desires?
Each day that goes by, I feel that myself is slowly slipping away until I am just a shell of tasks needing to be done and other's needs being fulfilled. Life is short and I want to just do something selfish and radical but I cannot because I have so much responsibility to take into account.

I am dead inside.


Sunday, September 11, 2011


Not sure what I am doing or where I am going anymore. Just living.

Monday, May 9, 2011


Work isn't for another few hours so I have some time to waste before then.

I didn't shower at all yesterday because playing on the internet all day wins over personal hygiene. Not all the time but sometimes.

Honestly, I really don't want to think about work. Much less go to it but this week there is so much going on that I cannot afford to skip any days. I am going to plan a small lump of time off near the end of June. I won't be going anywhere. Just need time to sit around at home and pretend that I don't have a job.
Some days I wish I could stay at home everyday but then I wouldn't have any money. So being that I need money, I will keep going to my job.

Lately I have been feeling tired of my existence. I don't want to die. I just feel bored. Need to think of ways to make everyday more exciting.
Let's go plan something. No. Later.....

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

a quickie

Wow, it has been a while since I have updated this. My poor little blog is so neglected. I doubt anyone will read this but whatever.
Not a whole lot has been going on. Work, sleep, work, sleep. That is pretty much it.
Geez, I am a boring old lady.
I'll post again soon when I have more to blog about. Take care everyone!

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

i love ... lolita

Lately, my love of lolita has been renewed. I need to wear it more often. I almost forgot how it feels to be dressed like a pretty, pretty princess.
And I want to start saving for a darling Baby, the Stars Shine Bright dress.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

first attempt

at wearing false lower lashes

it is going to take some getting used to. i felt like my eyes were completely covered in false lashes but i do like how it looks.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

first post of the year!

Hurray for a new year!

I love new year holiday. I love the feeling of a 'start over' and some good ol' optimism for what you are assuming is your best year ever.

As most have noticed or not noticed (not really sure if anyone other than my sister reads my blog) I really don't post much. That is due to many things including fatigue from work, lack of desire and a general fear of interwebz rejecting me because I sound stupid in text.
I have no resolutions to share. I really don't have much to say. I am just going to do as I please from here on out and stop caring about what the interwebz does or does not think about me.

And for your viewing pleasure, a little gem from ....

I love that picture.

Goodnight & love!!!