So many times I have told myself that I want to start blogging regularly. How much I think I enjoy it and how much fun it looks.
I fail at doing that even though it seems like it would be a lot of fun. Then, I get so tired and lazy from the rest of my life that the desire to blog is all but gone. I feel like I fail at doing all the things that I enjoy doing. I know I am depressed and I need help. But when do I get to go get that help? When will be it my time to go do the things I once enjoyed and fulfill my creative desires?
Each day that goes by, I feel that myself is slowly slipping away until I am just a shell of tasks needing to be done and other's needs being fulfilled. Life is short and I want to just do something selfish and radical but I cannot because I have so much responsibility to take into account.
I am dead inside.